I would take my shame to the grave

chester_the_cat

"With every ending, comes a new beginning..."

a few days na lang eh tapos na ang year 2006...kaya bago mangyari yun, magrereflect muna ako...

this past year...

• naakyat ko ang mt.banahaw
• lalo akong naging cynical
• nagkaroon na naman ako ng mga kakaibang problema
• nawalan na naman ako ng friend sa ac
• nagsayaw ako ng "sway" ng PCD
• nanood ng sineng pinoy
• naadik sa anime
• nagpatanga-tanga
• nag-apply ako sa mga universities at may napasahan
• lalo akong tumaba
• napaiyak ako ng telenovela...yung "a rosy life"
• naging member ng "acu-forums"
• bumagsak sa CISCO
• gumaling sa Math...nagka87 na rin ako...
• pumunta ng mga anime conventions
• naging news editor
• nakapuntang tiendesitas
• nagvideoke ako
• dumami ang blog ko
• mas dumalas ang pag-iyak ko sa mga walang kwentang bagay
• naging mas matipid
• wala pang absent
• naging top 1
• nagkaroon ng bagong salamin
• umatend ng dalawang charity
• inabot ng bagyo ang retreat
• nakakita ng multo
• muntik bumingo kay Fr. Blaise
• naging part ng academic quiz bee
• tumagal na naman ng one year sa AC
• bumili ng mga bagong libro
• naadik sa pirates
• muli na namang naging adik sa shounen-ai
• nagkaroon ng crush na cosplayer
• lalong na-adik...este nabaliw
• natuwa sa mga local bands
• may mga nakitang artista
• namatayan...RIP...
• nakapuntang probinsya
• nagdecorate ng stage
• bumili ng mga anime series
• naging active sa FC ulit..
• na-adik sa FMA
• nakagawa ng marming tula...
• nagpost ng fanfic sa FF.net

...marami pa yan eh...kaso di ko na maalala yung iba...

chester_the_cat

hmmm...

natapos na kanina yung Reach-out namin sa PCSO childhouse. Masaya naman siya and very eye-opening.

Maaga kami gumising nila ate para i-prepare yung mga pagkain. Sabi nga nila Cheech, yung friend ni ate, labor of love daw.

Hindi ako mahilig sa bata, pero ewan ko ba, pero kiddie magnet ata ako dun. I have a few scratches and bites, pero ok lang. Probably excited lang sila sa mga bisita.

Kahit na napaka-impromptu lang ng skit ng ACU/FC, ok lang. Nag-enjoy naman yung mga kids eh. And pati ata cosplayers nag-enjoy din. hehe. Kahit na hindi namin sila napag-lunch.

Comments about sa food: Ang sarap nung tinapay nila Manong Kado! hehe...pero lahat sila, gusto nila yung german chocolate. Ako lang may gusto ng spanish bread. ahehe.

Comments about the cosplayers:  Ok lang, kahit na hindi sila nag-costume lahat, at least, the kids enjoyed their presence and nag-effort sila. I give them credit for that. And ang friendly nila sa mga kids. They all loved Sugar's Wings.

The Aftermath: NagChristmas Party ang ACU...at ako, sumama ako kay ate. Kuumain kaming teriyaki boy. ahehe. Sarap ng Teriyaki.

A realization: I admire all the kids in the childhouse. Sa ganun nilang edad, nakikipaglaban na sila sa sakit. Mahina pa ang katawan nila pero yung spirit nila, and yung will to live, sobrang tibay na. It's sad nga lang, kasi baka di ko na sila ma-meet next year eh. I met a lot of them, and parang naisip ko, dapat i-enjoy ko yung life ko, kasi ako walang sakit pero ginagawa kong miserable ang aking buhay.

Plano ko na walang kwenta: Magiging inactive muna ko sa ACU ng matagal. nahiya ako sa kasungitan ko at sobrang pagkatahimik kanina.

chester_the_cat

Merry Xmas to everyone!!

ehehe...

kakaiba naman tong pasko na to para saken...ahehe...nagdec25 na pala ng hindi ko namamalayan...grabe, naglaro lang ako ng valkyrie profile sa PSP ni kuya...

anu bang kakaiba sa pasko na toh? Bakit di ko feel yung Xmas spirit? una kong theory, dahil sa weather yun eh...second theory...wala akong second theory...

anyway, mukhang magbabago naman lahat bukas, sa cosplay xms party...ehehe...

chester_the_cat

wee!!!

i'm so happy naman...

i posted my EdWin fanfic kanina sa fanfiction.net...and hours later, may nagpost ng review!

I'm so happy kasi sabi niya, nicely done daw and hope to read more from me...

so nice!

ahehe...

wanna read my fic? check out my LJ, http://schizopyro.livejournal.com hehe...

review ka din, if you like...

chester_the_cat

"hello?"

A long pause.

"how have you been? It's been a long time." the voice from the other line drawled.  My heartbeat quickens.

"i'm ok. and you?" I tried to asked casually.

 a laugh came from the other line. "still haven't changed." he mused. "why is your voice trembling?"

Asshole. If only he knew... "What are you talking about? I'm not trembling. It's just that...it's too cold here."

"Cold? It's noon. And you're outside." he points out. "Excuses again?"

"Shut up!" my face turned red when he caught my lie.

"Don't be so cranky, love." he seems totally amused.

"I hate you!"

a long pause...again.

"I'm sorry about that." he suddenly turned serious. Memories came flooding back and I refused to open the flood gates now. It's been a long time.

"Sorry about what?"

"Don't act as if you REALLY don't know."

"It's in the past. We better not look it up."

"People change. I'm sorry if I hurt you..." wait,was that really him? "It's time to go on with our lives, you see."

"I..."

"I know I broke your heart but I'm still hoping that we'll be good friends..the way we used to be." a forced laugh. "So, forgive me?"

"Yeah. If that'll shut you up." and then I ended the call.

All my life, I've longed to have your heart. All this time we were together, I thought you were mine. My ANGEL from heaven, my LIGHT...You showed me everything I wanted to see. You made me feel that in this cruel world, there's a place where I belong. But you're just a dream...

I woke up one day to see you gone. I cried my heart out, you know. You said you'd stay and help me see things through. You promised me...

And still, even though you're gone, I'm still waiting, till the beat of my heart stops...

And I slumped, and I cried again.